A Powerful Woman

Here is a story that I shared in church on Sunday. Mabel's life is an amazing example of someone who found joy and power in Jesus. I encourage you to read it.

I got it from William Lane Craig's, Defender 3 series, here is the link to the podcast transcript. He is telling the story of a colleague of his, Thomas Schmidt.


Few of us, I think, really understand this truth. But I had a colleague when I taught at Westmont College who got to know a woman who did understand this. He used to make it a practice of his to visit shut-ins in nursing homes in the community in an attempt to bring some bit of cheer and love into their lives. One Mother’s Day he was visiting a nursing home in which he met a woman whom he would never forget. This is his account of that woman and that friendship.[2] He says:

On this particular day I was walking in a hallway that I had not visited before looking in vain for a few who were alive enough to receive a flower and a few words of encouragement. This hallway seemed to contain some of the worst cases. Strapped onto carts or into wheelchairs and looking completely helpless.

As I neared the end of this hallway I saw an old woman strapped in a wheelchair, her face was an absolute horror. The empty stare and white pupils of her eyes told me that she was blind. The large hearing aid over one ear told me that she was almost deaf. One side of her face was being eaten by cancer. There was a discolored and running sore covering part of one cheek and it had pushed her nose to the side, dropped one eye and distorted her jaw so that what should have been the corner of her mouth was the bottom of her mouth. As a consequence, she drooled constantly. I also learned later that this woman was 89 years old and that she had been bedridden, blind, nearly deaf and alone for 25 years. This was Mabel.

I don’t know why I spoke to her. She looked less likely to respond than most of the people I saw in that hallway. But I put a flower in her hand and said, “Here is a flower for you, Happy Mother’s Day.” She held the flower up to her face and tried to smell it and then she spoke and much to my surprise her words, though somewhat garbled because of her deformity, were obviously produced by a clear mind. She said, “Thank you, it’s lovely, but can I give it to someone else? I can’t see it you know, I’m blind.”

I said, “of course,” and I pushed her in her chair back down the hallway to a place where I thought I could find some alert patients. I found one and stopped the chair. Mabel held out the flower and said, “Here, this is from Jesus.”

It was then that it began to dawn on me that this was not an ordinary human being. . . . Mabel and I became friends over the next few weeks and I went to see her once or twice a week for the next three years. . . . It was not many weeks before I turned from a sense that I was being helpful to a sense of wonder. And I would go to her with a pen and paper to write down the things she would say. . . .

During one hectic week of final exams, I was frustrated because my mind seemed to be pulled in ten directions at once with all of the things that I had to think about. The question occurred to me, what does Mabel have to think about? Hour after hour, day after day, week after week, not even able to know if it is day or night. So I went to her and asked, “Mabel, what do you think about when you lie here?”

And she said, “I think about my Jesus.”

I sat there and thought for a moment about the difficulty for me of thinking about Jesus for even five minutes. And I asked, “What do you think about Jesus?” She replied slowly and deliberately as I wrote, and this is what she said,

I think how good he has been to me. He has been awfully good to me in my life, you know. . . . I’m one of those kind who’s mostly satisfied. . . . Lots of folks would think I’m kind of old-fashioned. But I don’t care. I’d rather have Jesus, he is all the world to me.

And then Mabel began to sing an old hymn:

Jesus is all the world to me,
My life, my joy, my all.
He is my strength from day to day,
Without him, I would fall.
When I am sad, to him I go.
No other one can cheer me so.
When I am sad, he makes me glad.
He’s my friend.

This is not fiction. Incredible as it may seem, a human being really lived like this. I know, I knew her. How could she do it? Seconds ticked and minutes crawled, and so did days and weeks and months and years of pain without human company and without an explanation of why it was all happening – and she laid there and sang hymns.[3] How could she do it?

The answer, I think, is that Mabel had something that you and I don’t have much of. She had power. Lying there, in that bed, unable to move, unable to see, unable to hear, unable to talk to anyone . . . , she had incredible power.[4]

Loving God With Your Whole Heart

This was originally written for May 2016 Oakland Evangelical Free Church Newsletter.

In Matthew 22:37 we are told that the greatest commandment is to love God with our whole heart, soul and mind, which is really another way of saying love God with all of yourself. How many of you have ever completely lived this out at any time in your life? The truth is none of us have ever loved God with our whole heart, soul and mind, and therefore, God will continue to call us to love Him more completely. 

One area of loving God that I have noticed is particularly in need of growth for many of Christians concerns our emotions and inner thought life. You know those areas that are private and that you would never discuss with anyone. Perhaps they may even be areas that are so scary or painful that you do not even approach them.

Each one of us is different so our inner heart issues are going to be different. For one person it might be the abuse or neglect from a father that causes them not be able to really trust any authority. Someone else might be really struggling with a hidden addiction that they think would bring great shame on them or their family if they ever let anyone else know. Maybe you have a loveless or even hateful marriage, but you put on a good face in public because that is what you are “supposed to do.”

Others desire love and acceptance so much that they don’t have good personal boundaries, and unintentionally drive their would be friends away, while all the time inwardly screaming for love. Maybe you feel the need to please everyone (one of my issues), and therefore you have trouble saying no, which leads to you having no space in your life to even consider the state of your heart. Some people have an anger issues that seem outside of their control, and they explode in sinful ways at the slightest provocation. Perhaps because of past hurt or loss you are always melancholy and have trouble letting yourself feel anything.

All these things and many others are indications that we have places in our hearts that we have not fully surrendered to the Lord. Unfortunately, we are often unconscious of the real inner issues and so we never address them. They remain barriers to a closer walk with the Lord, to healthy relationships with other people, and personal peace and joy.

But have hope!  We do not need to remain trapped by our emotions and heart issues. Christ came to set us free from sin and its effects! Romansh 8:6 says "For to set the mind on the flesh is death, but to set the mind on the Spirit is life and peace.” The key to freedom in these areas is to let the life of the Spirit live in us, and then we will begin to see the fruit of the Spirit; love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control, take over us. 

Practically, what we need to do is take the faith step of asking the Lord to reveal to us the areas of our heart that need to be surrendered to Him. I like to pray Psalm 139:23-24 “ 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart!

 Try me and know my thoughts! 24 And see if there be any grievous way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting!"

Secondly, God gave us the church for a reason. We need to find safe mature Christians who we can trust to confess our sins (James 5:16), and who we can trust enough to help us examine ourselves. Sometimes we have blind spots that we would not be willing to examine unless someone else helped challenge us (see Proverbs 27:6). 

If we are serious about loving God with all of ourselves, then let’s take the step of opening up our whole heart to His wonderful healing hand. He loves you enough that you can trust Him with the deepest parts of yourself. 

Transgender Bathrooms and Paypal

Why I am going to stop using Paypal.

Recently, Paypal, an internet payment company that is related to the internet auction site, Ebay, made a decision to withdraw their plans to build a global operations center in North Carolina. (Link to Paypal's corporate release).They said their decision was based on a new law in North Carolina, which they claim denies people in the LGBT community equal rights, and therefore goes against their values. They were referring to a new law in North Carolina, HB2 which mandates that bathroom and changing facilities that are used by multiple people at a time, only be used by people of the same biological sex. (Link to the NC Bill).

This state bill was written in response to a Charlotte, North Carolina regulation that was going to allow anyone to use any bathroom or changing facility based upon their self identification rather than their biological sex. What this would have meant is that all businesses and public facilities would have been required to allow a biological man, who identified as a woman, or a biological woman who identified as a man to use whatever facility they wanted based on their own gender identity. 

The Charlotte regulation allowing transgender bathroom use was not the first of its kind in the county, but the state bill responding to it really is the first time a political entity has pushed back in a big way.

This situation has lead me to ask some questions about what my response should be as a citizen, a consumer, and as a Christian. Do I have any responsibilities to not do business with companies that are doing immoral things or that are promoting harmful policies? If so when do I make that decision, because every company is run by sinful humans and will at some point do something that I find wrong or that does not 100% agree with my point of view. 

Many of the companies whose products I use are run by people who have different values than I do as a conservative Christian, but I still use them. This blog will be posted on blogger, a Google site, Facebook, and Twitter. I am quite sure that all of them have executives who have a very different view of sexual morality than I do, but I am continuing to use them for the moment. 

In this case though I am going to stop using Ebay and Paypal because of their very public and political stance on an issue that I believe could lead to very harmful situations for innocent people, including innocent children. In their desire to support the gender identity of limited number individuals, they risk violating the privacy of the rest population. If we cannot have bodily privacy in bathroom and changing areas, then where can we expect to have them.

My rationale for making this decision is based on the public move by Paypal. Likewise, a few years ago, Mozilla fired their CEO, Brendan Eich, because he had given a donation to the Prop 8 campaign in California in support of traditional marriage. Like Paypal, Mozilla was making a public statement that traditional values are going to be actively opposed by the company. How can I continue to support a company that actively promotes harmful behavior or actively opposes my own worldview?

Now this is not an easy decision for me because I have been a regular of Paypal and Ebay for years because their products and sites have benefitted me. I have bought and sold products on Ebay recently and used Paypal as my primary payment method to both receive payment and to pay others. Therefore, this decision will have a cost for me, but I am hoping that though my actions and words (and other like me) it may also have a cost for Paypal, letting them know that they cannot actively support policies that directly contradict values of a number of their customers. 

In making this decision, I am not trying to say that anyone else must do as I do, but rather encouraging you to at least think about your morals and how you are interacting with the world around you.

I have included with following this post the letter that I sent to Paypal explaining my decision.

I encourage you to think deeply about your values and how they affect your life. Paypal executives are making decisions based on their values and so should we.

Paypal letter

To whom it may concern:

I have used Ebay and Paypal for a number of years now. I am not a huge user, but I have done consistent business and as the IT guy in my family I have also directed other people to use your business. For instance, I purchased and sold a number of items on Ebay with Paypal as my primary payment method. I have also used your credit card scanner in a small business and encouraged a family member to use it as well.

While Ebay with Paypal is not my primary internet way of shopping, I have used it a number of times for thousands of dollars over the years. In other words, while not a huge customer, I have been a regular customer.

Your recent decision to no longer locate your global center in North Carolina based on your corporate values makes me question whether I can still do business through you because of my values.

I read the text of North Carolina HB2 concerning use of bathroom and changing facilities and biological gender, and not only can I find nothing wrong with the bill, I can agree with its sentiments. The idea written into some laws and municipal codes that bathroom and changing room use should be determined by the beliefs / orientation of the individual rather than biology will and has lead to the violation of the rights of other individuals right to bodily privacy.

I have 4 kids, and the concept that they could be exposed to someone with opposite biological genitalia or may be forced into having their bodies exposed to someone of opposite genitalia based on the mindset of the other individual is repugnant to me. For me to knowingly allow such a thing would be tantamount to child abuse, and yet that is exactly what a new regulations will allow and encourage.

The North Carolina law was clearly written to protect the bodily privacy of individuals who might be exposed in a multiple use bathroom or changing room setting (go read the law). It does not apply to single use settings and it explicitly allows for making accommodations for individuals who may have differing gender identities while still protecting the rights of the majority of people who would be using a multiple use facility.

Therefore, for you to say your corporate values have lead you away from locating in North Caroline based at least partly on this law makes me question whether you have thought through the consequences of those values. In an attempt to accommodate the gender identity of the small minority you would trample the rights of the majority and risk exposing even young children to psychological harm.

Therefore, while I am not closing my account just yet, I am going to stop using it. Already in the past 2 days I have made the decision not to shop for something on Ebay and not to pay for something else with Paypal. Furthermore, I am actively looking for other options for when I need to make a sale. I am notifying my friends and family via social media of my decision and my rationale. Now maybe they will continue to use your business and maybe they won't, but it will at least be some bad publicity for your companies.

I do not wish to have to make this decision because I have benefited from your business, but just as you need to make decision based on your values, so do I. 

Good News

In last week's paper, you may have seen on the front page the good news that my daughter, Rebekah, won the Geography Bee at school. (Yes, I am a proud Daddy.)

 I am sure in this week's newspaper you can read about the good news of the Oakland - Craig Girls Basketball team winning the conference championship.

One of the differences between a small town paper and big newspapers or national news outlets is that they often include as much good news as bad news. Most of the time national news leads with the most sensational stories, which are often disasters,  shocking crimes or political candidates tearing one another down. If you spend all of your time on that type of news you can get depressed by all the bad news.

Christians are called to share the good news about Jesus, but often the news does not seem very good to others. Sometimes they look at our lives and do not see much joy, so they assume the news about Jesus must not be very good if His followers do not act like it. At other times, they assume the news from God is all about condemnation of their sin. People think church is all about judgment, and that they need to clean themselves up before they can come and be like the "holy" church goers.

Not all misperceptions of the gospel are the fault of Christians, but we can do things to make sure that the front page of our lives shows the good news about Jesus.

If you know Jesus, then the fruit of the Holy Spirit should be growing in you, so your friends and family should experience your growth in love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, gentleness, faithfulness, and self-control. People will be attracted to you and then to Jesus more if these qualities are present and growing. They see and feel God's love working through you toward them.

Furthermore, we can make the good news clear while still being honest about the bad news. The bad news is that people and the world are broken by sin. Therefore, we do need to repent for our sins because sin leads to pain, rather than true happiness and fulfillment. The good news is not that God ignores sin or takes it lightly, but rather that He forgives sin and desires to transform us into people who can live happy and fulfilled lives following Him. He does this through the work of Jesus on the cross, which makes forgiveness possible, and the work of the Holy Spirit that continues the redemption in our lives. The good news is then is all about what Jesus has done and is doing in us.

Christians, living out the gospel, can be honest about the problems of life, but can show people hope beyond the bad news to the wonderful news about Jesus. My encouragement to you is to make sure that you know the good news of Jesus, and that the front page of your life tells His story.

Win the Prize

Have you looked at the sports section yet? Did your team win? Are they moving up or down the rankings? I love sports, both as a spectator and as a participant. I like to compete and to win, because it feels like we (I) have accomplished something. I am finding though, that my 40 something body does not allow me to do as much, so now I participate vicariously through my kids and other kids in town. 

Do you ever think about winning at life? What would that even mean? The old saying goes, “That he who dies with the most toys wins,” but it is countered by the more meaningful phrase, “he who dies with the most toys, still dies.” One day your name may appear on the sports page as the winner, but some day it will appear among the obituaries.

The Apostle Paul also paid attention to sports and compared them to life, saying, "Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable (1 Corinthians 9:24-25). He compared life to competing as an athlete, but he wanted to make sure he was competing for a prize that could not be taken away. Likewise, Jesus also said that we in this life could build up treasures for heaven (Matthew 6:20).

These imperishable prizes are not trophies, sports cars, 4-wheelers, boats, guns, or tractors (even green tractors!). All of these things are perishable prizes. Either they will go away or you will go away from them. So what kind of prize is really imperishable?

The only things that are going to survive beyond this life are people, so the only prizes that last beyond this life are our relationships, specifically our relationships with God, and other people who will be with God. Therefore, for us to compete for an imperishable prize we need to make sure we know God and are growing in relationship with Him. We come to know God by knowing who Jesus is, what He has done, and believing in Him for salvation. By focusing our life on growing our relationship with God we earn the eternal imperishable prize of a fantastic life with Him for eternity.

Along with that relationship, God wants us to have the prize of many, many eternal relationships. So the more we introduce people to Jesus, the more people will join us in eternity. The more time and energy we spend loving others and building them up, the more we are preparing for eternity. This life is a training room for eternity, and the more we spend time training for an imperishable prize, the more prepared for eternity we will be. Furthermore, by training hard for eternity, we actually get a prize in this life of deeper relationships here with God and others, which adds a richness and meaning to this life that cannot be found by seeking after any other prize.

Don't waste your life playing the wrong game and seeking the wrong prizes. Seek first the Kingdom of God, and all these other things will be added to you!

New Life in a New Family

Here is an article, I wrote that was published recently in our local newspaper, the Oakland Independent.

When you open the paper, did you turn to see if any new babies were born? Babies are almost universally loved, because they are cute, innocent, and helpless. We love babies, because they represent the future.

Often though, kids do not reach their full potential. How disappointed are we when someone, especially one of our own children goes astray? Perhaps you even look back on your life and wish that you could go back have a do over.

In a favorite movie for our family, Napoleon Dynamite, Uncle Rico is a character that is constantly reliving  his glory days of high school football. He imagines that if only he could go back, get in the big game and win that state championship his whole life would be different. Many of us have similar regrets about life and we wish we could just go back, get a clean slate or at least believe that the future still holds new possibilities for us.

The Jewish teacher, Nicodemus came to Jesus for a conversation one night (John 3), and Jesus told him about a chance for a type of do over. Jesus said that he could be "born again," but Nicodemus wondered how he, as an old man, could enter once again into his mother's womb. Jesus responded that the new birth and the new life is not physical like the old life, but rather it is spiritual. What God offers is to remake us on the inside and give us a new identity as His child.

Further, this offer is for everyone no matter how many regrets, mistakes, or even major sins you have in your life. It also does not matter how old you are, God could even make an old man like Nicodemus a new child of His. When you are reborn into new life with Christ, your past is forgiven and you are given a future with new possibilities. You become a spiritual child with a new Father who will love, accept and walk with you as He helps you become the person that He made you to be.

The condition to receive this new life is to be willing to give up your old life and humbly admit you need the new life that God offers. Like a child with their parent, we need to trust that God can and really does want to make you a new person. Now this does not mean you will suddenly become perfect, but you become a new creation (2 Corinthians 5:17) and become a part of the family of God (1 John 1:12). Once in the family, God does not kick us out when we sin, but rather lovingly works with and in us to forgive and restore. No longer do our failures have to define us, because we can always run back to our loving Father.

To close, here is a poem from an unknown elementary school teacher, that describes the constant renewal with the new life in Christ.

He came to my desk with a quivering lip,
the lesson was done.
“Have you a new sheet for me, dear teacher?
I’ve spoiled this one.”
I took his sheet, all soiled and blotted
and gave him a new one all unspotted.
And into his tired heart I cried,
“Do better now, my child.”

I went came to the throne with a trembling heart;
the day was done.
“Have you a new day for me, dear Master?
I’ve spoiled this one.”
He took my day, all soiled and blotted
and gave me a new one all unspotted.
And into my tired heart he cried,
“Do better now, my child."

The Last Act is Tragic

This is a column I wrote for our local paper, the Oakland Independent. It is the first in a series that uses different parts of the paper to encourage people to examine their lives.

What is one of the first places you flip in a local newspaper? I bet most of us look pretty quickly at the obituaries. Did you turn there to see if someone you know or someone famous or someone too young died.

Why are we the living so interested in death? Might it be because we know that death is a destination where we are all inevitably headed. No matter what modern medicine might do, we have not conquered death. No matter how significant your life here might be, it will someday, perhaps someday soon all be over.

Blaise Pascal wrote about our situation like this, "Let us imagine a number of men in chains and all condemned to death, where some are killed each day in the sight of the others, and those who remain see their own fate in that of their fellows and wait their turn, looking at each other sorrowfully and without hope. It is an image of the condition of men."

No matter what we do to try to ignore and put it off, death is inevitable. Whenever we read the obits or watch the news of another war or murder, we are reminded of our fate. Even if your life now is great, you will eventually die, and as Pascal also said, "The last act is tragic. They throw earth over your head and it is finished forever." Ecclesiastes declares that everything under the sun is vanity or a vapor, and this includes our very lives. They are here today and gone tomorrow, and if this world is all there is, then death is the final word.  

But Christians have hope that death on this earth is not the end. We believe that Jesus conquered death, and so we do not view death as the same kind of tragedy as those who do not know their fate or who believe death is the final end. In fact, we believe that Jesus conquered death and that when we trusted Him as our Savior, that He gave us eternal life. So we can now declare with the Apostle Paul, "Death where is your victory? Where is your sting?" 1 Corinthians 15:55, because we believe that death in this life simply transfers us to a new and even better kind of life.

This kind of confidence makes a huge difference, and if you don't believe me, then just join me for a funeral of someone who knows Jesus. We have had three such funerals at our church this last year. While there is sadness for us at parting from someone we love, there is also an incredible joy in the confidence that they are now with Jesus and that we will one day see them again.

If death comes for you today, tomorrow, or 50 years from now will you be ready? Are you confident that death is not the end? Are you confident in where you will spend eternity? The time to examine death and life is now, not some time later. If life is not just about what you can do while living under the sun, then you should figure out why you are here and where you are going before they throw dirt over your head.